Seeking for some help | Waterfall Illustration using Procreate

I took a long break. Honestly for no reason. 

Life happened and it alway does but that can't be the excuse for not doing anything. 

Confession time !!! 

When things go wrong or let me correct the way I don't expect them happen then the very first thing I give up is my favourite activity or things that are good for me like drawing in this case.

Recently drawing working like magic for me. 

It’s meditative that what’s they say. 

Well, I really never done a real meditation. 

I tried closing eyes and focusing and all sort of guided or unguided ones but nothing worked.

I guess I have a monkey mind.

So I don’t know what meditative state means. 

But the benefits they talk of meditation are similar that I experience after a good drawing session.
But this illustration is definitely not among that one.

When I take longer breaks, another thing which happen is I tend to resist more before starting a new drawing.
So this time I decided to choose easy one.

But I struggled. I struggled a hell lot.
I did not enjoyed while drawing it and hated the final outcome.

I decided to forget and start with new one.
But the important thing I felt, I must record it somewhere. So whenever I find a fix or reason for such weird behavioural pattern I can update it.

Now it’s your turn.
Do you experience similar? Feel free to share in comment section.
And the most important if you have a solution for these problems , I will be most grateful.

Thanks in advance.
Take Care.

P. S. The tutorial I used is Art with Flo (https://youtu.be/ANjR_w9c580)